Find YOUR inner child

It was that laughter,
at the lake almost every nite,
in the car, at school 30 miles from home
in a broken down car,
we would have to lye on the gravel
and find the starter TAP,TAP,TAP
with a wrench.
Never knowing where we were going
or how we would get there
AND WE DIDN'T CARE.
WE had FUN...never stop having fun.
The worse things got, the more we laughed,
"even if we could remember these details,
NO ONE WOULD EVER BELIEVE IT HAPPENED
anyway"...like children laughing until whatever
we were drinking spewed from our nose.
I had not realized by being around some one happy
I had given myself permission to invent,obsess.
Obsession doesn't have any rhyme or reason
that's why its obsession, just dont think about
what is missing,as visions of gentlemen
dance in my head.Lovely ones,tall ones,short ones
rich and poor,happy and sad,the good ones 
and the bad....
dreaming,watching the clouds go by
I am starting to remember the little girl in me
the one who left when I put my life on hold
to raise my children
I'm starting to remember that I had
ambition... 
            R.I.P. RAMII
             Thank you for putting the laughter
              back in my life.